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Up all night

September 2003


The phone just kept buzzing, it felt like time stood still, neither of us moving. Jacob had glanced down for a quick second to see who it was. Apparently he wasn't interested in speaking with her because his attention was immediately back on the road.

I tried to act casual, I looked out the window, I ran my hands through my hair, all while trying to glance briefly at him. I wanted to see his reaction.  Unfortunately it hadn't changed since the call, he looked just as relaxed and calm as before. He even started chatting again about a bonfire his friends were throwing next weekend. I brushed aside the fact that his ex girlfriend just called and joined in on the conversation.

My mood had drastically changed, but I don't really know if I had a right to feel this emotional.  It was just a call, and technically we weren't exclusive.  All that said though I was annoyed. When we pulled up to his house I remained on auto pilot and followed him in. Jacob poured us a drink and we went upstairs to his room.

"Want to watch a movie or something?"  He held up a couple dvd's and I pointed to the comedy. About half way through we were too busy making out to pay any attention to the movie. All thoughts of the call were forgotten as his lips touched my neck. Unfortunately somewhere between removing my shirt and his, my insecurities creeped back in. I pushed him off me and sat up.

"Everything ok?" Jacob asked.

"Yeah...no, I don't know. It's about earlier,  in the car. Your phone lit up and you got a call?" He still looked confused so I continued.  "Kim, as in ex girlfriend Kim called." The memory registered on his face. I expected him to react nervous or something, at least that's how Cal would have reacted. But instead he just smiled and shook his head.

"Kim is the name of my ex girlfriend, but it's also the name of my aunt." He grabbed his phone from the nightstand and flipped it open, scrolling to missed calls he opened up the contact and there was a small picture of a women holding a little boy. The picture wasn't great quality but you could tell she was older. I instantly felt a little embarrassed. Jacob noticed my reaction and raised his hand gently to cup my cheek.

"Hey, I can see where the confusion happened. But honestly I haven't given the other Kim much of a thought in I don't know how long."  This did make me feel better but I knew I still had to say something.

"I guess that makes me happy but what I don't like is how much it bugged me. I mean we're not exclusive or anything but the thought of you still talking to her made my mind wonder and I didn't like thinking you might also be seeing her. " I looked up at him.

"Juliette, I'm not seeing anyone but you. In fact I don't want to see anyone but you. I didn't realize you didn't know that." He exclaimed. He had stood up now and was leaning against his dresser facing the bed. I crawled off the bed and walked toward him. Reaching up on my tiptoes I raised my hand, brushing it through his hair then pulling his head to me. His forehead rested on mine.

"Well I'm not seeing anyone else either." I said in an almost whisper.  His mouthed curved into a smile. I moved my lips to his and gave him a quick kiss.

"So, you saying what I think you are?" He asked before giving me another quick kiss.

"You think we should see other people. " I said leaning my head back and giving him a crushed look. I couldn't keep a straight face though and started smiling. "Not what you meant?"  I squealed when he pinched my ass and pulled me closer.

"Just shut up and kiss me Jujie." With pleasure my mouth found his.

I woke up the next morning with Jacob's arm around me.  He wasn't awake yet but I had to pee so bad. I slowly moved his arm off of me and ran to the bathroom.  When I returned he was already getting dressed.

"Sorry I woke you but I had to pee." I smiled as I watched him pull his shirt down over his delicious abs.

"It's OK, I'm starving, my girlfriend kept me up all night working out. "  I couldn't help the huge grin that appeared when he called me his girlfriend. We got ready then headed to IHOP for some pancakes. I had a class that afternoon so he drove me home after.  It was hard breaking away from his kiss to go inside but somehow I manged to.

When I opened the front door I was greeted by Amanda and Alicia.  They were sitting on the couch laughing at some photo album.  Stepping closer to see I noticed one of the kids in a picture was me.

"Let me see that! " I yanked it away from the giggling girls. The photo was a large group of kids of all ages.  In the back row of children I was standing with my arm around Amanda on my right.  Next to me on my left was Jacob and we were standing so close or cheeks were touching.

"How freaking cute,  how many people get to say they have a photo cheek to cheek at five years old with their boyfriend?" I glanced up from the album to see Alicia grinning.  Amanda had a different look however. .

Happy birthday to me!

September 2003


"Where are you taking me?" I said for the hundredth time. Jacob turned his attention to me and grinned like a mischievous little boy before looking back to the road.

It was a warm September night and more importantly, my birthday.  I spent the day sleeping in, getting a pedicure and getting ready to go out with Jacob. He didn't say where so I wore a solid pale blue sundress, figured it would work for something casual or a little fancy. When Jacob knocked on my door I was pleased to see he wore a nice black button down and jeans. He looked so handsome with his hair a little messy and his sleeves rolled up,  showing off his strong forearms. I was thankful Amanda was out. I haven't really talked to her much about seeing her brother, especially since we never had the talk. I just think it would be awkward to mention, 'hey I sometimes go out with your brother and ya, am sleeping with him'.

When he took the exit for the Coronado bridge I turned to him in excitement. I've only been over to Coronado once to walk around the ferry landing. Coronado Island technically isn't an island, it's a peninsula but even the welcome sign said 'Coronado Island'. It was still in San Diego County but managed to have a small town feel.

Jacob pulled into a parking spot along the beach and ran to open my door. He took my hand in his and led me along the sidewalk. We took the path that led toward the ocean. The beach in Coronado was very long so it was a pleasant walk to the water.

We climed the stairs of a vacant lifeguard tower. We sat with our backs against the tower, facing the sea. After taking a few pictures of the two of us with my camera, I leaned closer into him and cuddled.  Jacob was stroking my arm lightly which sent shivers through my body. With the same hand he casually slid my spaghetti strap down. His hand began messaging my shoulder gently before sliding down the front of my dress. When he cupped my breast I sucked in my breath and moaned as he played with my nipple.  When he stopped I pouted then turned toward him straddling his lap.

"Mhm, Juliette your going to have to stop soon or anyone walking by may see me take you right here." He groaned as he kissed my neck. I pushed his head up to face me.

"Maybe I don't want to stop," I said before leaning in to bite his upper lip. When I pulled away he grinned and shook his head. Grabbing my neck he pulled me back in for a kiss. When my tongue found his I felt him harden beneath me and I knew I couldn't stop now. Luckily I was wearing a dress so we managed to finish as discreetly as we could. I can't say we were as quiet as we should have been but it was well worth it and by the huge grin on Jacob's face I know he felt the same.

"Happy Birthday to me," I sang as I tried to adjust my dress.

"Your birthday isn't over baby, come on let's go eat." He helped me off the tower and led us back toward the sidewalk.

We walked to the Hotel Del. This beautiful red and white hotel was built in the late 1800's. Besides being historic it was very grand and well known for its famous guests like Marilyn Monroe and several presidents. Walking through the lower level we passed several shops and stopped to read about the history of the establishment.

We came upon an old gold colored metal elevator and were excited it was still operating. Stepping in the metal birdcage we were greeted by a friendly operator in an adorable uniform making you feel like you stepped back in time as soon as your feet hit the bright red carpet. Closing the gate we were slowly raised to the hotel lobby. Stepping out we continued our time travel as we wondered around admiring the lobby. Everything was keeping with the Victorian theme, from the elaborate sparkling chandeliers to the dark rich woodwork.
We explored the courtyard before walking across the street for dinner.

"I think I remember you said you like sushi? This restaurant has high reviews so I thought we should try it."  Jacob said. I smiled knowing I would soon have a spicy tuna roll in front of me. Jacob gave the hostess his name and we were quickly seated at a table by the window.

"You know I've never actually had sushi," Jacob shyly admitted.  I looked up from my menu in shock.

"What!? You grew up here, there's fresh fish here. Is it the raw thing?  You chose a sushi place for dinner Jacob." I babbled on. He laughed shaking his head.

"You like it so I figured I may as well try it. As a kid the thought of raw fish grossed me out but I don't know, what the hell."

"Alright, well let me order for us then?  Besides I noticed fried rice, we can order just in case." I got busy picking out a few rolls, I stayed away from anything too out there just in case. I picked a spicy tuna, a California, and a crunch roll with cream cheese, jalapeño and tuna with crunchy flakes on top. We chatted about wanting to stay a night at the Hotel Del as we waited for our food. Rooms are super pricey so doubt I'd stay there anytime soon.

The waitress returned with our rolls, they looked so good my stomach growled in agreement. I showed Jacob how to break up the Wasabi into his soy sauce. He questioned if he should really put the whole slice in his mouth at once, I promised I wasn't messing with him so he dipped a tuna roll in the sauce and popped it into his mouth.  I had patience enough to wait and watch him,  hoping he would like it.  After he swallowed he grinned happily and reached for another. That was all I needed to dig in.

After our delicious dinner, with chocolate cake for dessert of course, we walked hand in hand slowly back to the car. Jacob walked me to the passenger side and instead of opening the door he lightly pushed me against the door and leaned in for a deep kiss. Breaking away he reached in his pocket and pulled out a small box with a red ribbon. My heart sped up as I stared at the box. I untied the ribbon, inside were two silver earrings in the shape of a dolphin. Each dolphin were wrapped around a blue sapphire stone.

"Jacob they're beautiful!" I gushed looking up at him.

"Well I saw how much you fell in love with the dolphins at SeaWorld, I saw these and I had to get them." He grinned happily.

"I love them," I handed him the box and removed the hoop earrings I was currently wearing.  After I got the second dolphin on, I reached up and wrapped my arms around Jacob for another kiss. This birthday definitely ended better then last year's I thought as we drove back to his place for the night. A small buzzing caught my attention, I looked down as Jacob's phone lit up in the cup holder next to me. My heart sank when I saw the name on the display.

Boy or Girl?

We had our midway ultrasound and I have no patience I had to know if it was another boy or a girl. Everything is looking healthy and it's a....Girl!!!

New post should be up this week :)

New or old friends

September 2003



After work I drove straight to school for my economics class. I was running a few minutes late so I breathed a sigh of relief when  I walked in to see the professor wasn't there yet either. I grabbed my usual seat in the third row. The old wooden desk creaked when I landed roughly in it. I pulled the pocket desk over and cursed the fact it was a right handed desk. It's my weekly ritual since the first day of class when I discovered how annoying these desks were for the left handed.

I greeted Sam as she sat down to my right. She grunted something that vaguely resembled a hello and slouched down in her chair. I just shook my head and smiled, Sam was in a bad mood about 80% of the time yet she managed to win people over with her charasmatic personality during her 20% happy self. I think we got along because she was very blunt and I tend to shy from blurting out whatever is on my mind, I liked that about her, it's like she said what I wanted to.

"Good evening,  I'm professor Smith but you can call me Henry."

I looked up surprised to see our usual professor, Johnson was absent. Instead, standing in front of us was a gorgeous specimen..I mean man. His dark hair was buzzed and complimented his strong facial features. He wore a black v-neck that looked about a size or two too small leaving you with little to imagine of the muscles underneath.  He looked less like a teacher and more like he was a uniform away from yelling drills at boot camp.

"If he teaches all semester I would never miss a class!" Sam whispered loudly as she sat up in her seat and removed her hoodie. I laughed at her as she tried to fix her hair quickly.

Professor Smith or rather Henry began lecturing the class on micro economy.  As he spoke I tried to concentrate, he was just too pretty. I felt my cheeks burn when he pointed right at me to answer some silly open ended question about supply and demand on product A. Luckily I had just read about this subject in our ridiculously over priced textbook and answered without blubbering like the pathetic star struck teen I felt inside.

"Very good answer.." he paused and nodded his head forward with his hand stretched out toward me.

"Juliette, it's Juliette." My voice shook a little and I thanked God I usually don't turn the shade I felt in my cheeks. Henry quickly moved on and before I knew it class was over.

"I call dibs!" Sam all but yelled at me when we grabbed our stuff to leave.

"What! He's our professor, besides I'm good. He's gorgeous but I'm good." I laughed her comment off and walked to the door. We were about half way to the parking lot when Sam mentioned she forgot her folder back in the classroom.

"Want me to come with you?" I asked, it was late now and dark.

"No..no I'm OK, I'll see you Thursday." She waved me off. I smiled to myself knowing full well she didn't leave anything.

On the ride home I called Alicia, she couldn't talk long but promised a girls night this week to catch up.  After hanging up I called Jacob, he seemed distracted as I made small talk. After awhile he had to go because he had a basketball game he was in starting. I felt a little embarrassed picturing him at the gym on the phone while his friends waited.

Deciding to embrace the alone time on the drive home I turned on the radio and sang along to Crazy In Love by Beyoncé.

It was my birthday later this month and I thought about last year's birthday. I rolled my eyes thinking about being with Cal, and letting Shelly crash on our couch. I don't know what the plans were for this year's birthday but I was thankful to not have them there. Maybe I'll throw a party, but then who'd I invite? In the year I've been here, I've only made a handful of friends, and that included Shelly. Great now I was depressed about my lack of a social life.

I pulled up to apartment hoping Alicia was home, someone to talk to. Instead I was surprised to see Amanda sitting on my doorstep.

"Hey, what are you doing here?" I asked as I turned the key opening the door.

"Hey, it's been awhile. I just figured I'd come check on my good friend Juliette." She smiled, the smile never reaching her eyes. I considered us friends but not really the type to drop in on each other. I gave her a look as I fell onto the couch.

"Alright truthfully,  I did want to see you its been awhile, but I was also hoping I could maybe crash here for a few days." She said shyly.

"What about your apartment?" I scrunched my brows in confusion.

"Well back when I was with Miles, he was paying for almost half my rent. When that ended I struggled to make rent and had to move. I've basically been sleeping on different couches since. The last place was at a coworkers but her husband got home from deployment and he wasn't really interested in someone living on their couch." She put her hands together and gave me a pleading look. I know I was just complaining about needing more friends but did I really want another person crashing on our couch?

"What the hell, I mean at least until you find a more permanent place right?"

"Yeah of course, three or four weeks tops."  She said grinning wide.  Sounds a lot like a few days. This should be interesting I thought as I left the room in search of something to eat.


Note: had hoped to have something up earlier this week but my son and I caught a stomach bug. So far my oldest son and husband haven't caught it and I pray they don't!  Feeling better now and got to hear the baby's heartbeat yesterday, so did my three year old. He says it's "our baby"  :)

Dolphin point

August 2003

"So you haven't been here yet?" Jacob said handing the tickets over to a friendly woman at the gate.

"Nope, but I have always wanted to." I grinned with excitement.  Jacob had called yesterday to see if I wanted to go to SeaWorld with him,  I jumped on the opportunity.  Alicia of course had already been here several times.  She said she could sit in one of the aquariums for hours. I'm not sure I could do the same but I was looking forward to seeing all the animals.

Hand in hand we wondered around the park. After viewing the fat wobbly penguins we got in line for some artic ride.

"What kinda ride is this," I asked as casually as I could.  I'm not really the roller coaster type of girl,  I wish I was but I just can't get over my nerves. Back on my 15th birthday a large group of us went to six flags, before that trip I had never been on a roller coaster. After the fifth ride I faked feeling ill in line to get out of riding another one, that's how much I'm not a fan.

"Giant coaster, lots of twists and turns." I jerked my head to see him, unable to mask the fear in my eyes. Before I could protest he burst out laughing.

"Relax Jujie, I remember the story, you don't like coasters. It's a motion ride, you sit in a chair and watch a screen while the room moves around. I let out a breath and smacked him on the arm for freaking me out.

The ride turned out to be a lot of fun, even during the scenes where it felt like we were sliding down the ice. Jacob made sure to put his hand upon mine.  The ride opened up to a dark hallway that lead you to the baluga tank. The white creatures were magnificent floating through the bright blue water.  Coming up to the polar bears that were close together, we realized we seemed to be getting more then we paid for. Jacob made a comment about making babies before we both walked away giggling like little teenagers.

After seeing a couple of shows and snacking on popcorn and ice cream we made our way to dolphin point. The rocky landscaping had a couple very large pools. You could lean over the chest high wall and look in, or you could view them through the clear glass wall section. As we walked up I saw a dolphin swim by, making me squeal. I ran up to the wall and leaned over. I was happily met with several gray dolphins splashing around.

"Well I'd say someone loves dolphins." Jacob said leaning down next to me.

"You know I've seen flipper and dolphins in the wild but never up close. I love how they look like they are smiling." I said as I copied the other tourists and laid my hand on the water with my palm flat. The beautiful mammals swam by, poking their heads up to check us out. After several minutes of watching them play I was startled when one came up right in front of me. I hesitated a second before petting the dolphin on it's head. I felt like a little kid in a candy shop I couldn't help but laugh. After a couple squeaks the animal swam off leaving us. I turned to Jacob to make sure he just saw that. Before I could speak he put one hand around my waist and pulled me close kissing me.

"What was that for?" I asked when our lips parted.

"You're just, so cute." He smiled then grabbed my hand leading us away from the growing crowd surrounding the dolphin tank.

We spent another hour or so wandering around before we decided we were starving and left to eat.

"So did I tell you I got that internship I applied for?" Jacob said.

"What? That's great!" I said before bitting into another chip covered in this magic white cheese sauce, I'm telling you it's magic. Jacob went on to discuss the position,  it was a paid internship in business development.  It sounded like a great opportunity I was happy for him.

"I found a new roommate. Remember I told you about the new girl at work, Taylor?  Anyways she was sleeping on a couch and needed a place. Alicia is moving soon so I figured why not." I pushed the white sauce away before I literally ate the whole bowl.

"Yeah, but you haven't known her that long,  are you sure you want to risk another coworker incident?" He said cautiously.

"I know, I thought about that but I don't think Taylor is like that. She came out here with her mom and I don't know I just think it will be ok. And she doesn't move in for a couple months. I mean what are the odds I'd have two crazy coworkers." He didn't have to answer because the waiter appeared with our plates. We spent the rest of the evening chatting about other San Diego attractions I need to see. Making plans to go to the zoo next week and I wanted to try surfing again.

Jacob paid for our meal and we headed back to my place. I was excited to see Alicia was at Dean's and we had the place to ourselves.  Jacob was also because he didn't let me leave the living room without removing my clothes.

"I've been wanting to take these shorts off all day." His voice got low as it tickled my neck. He sat on the arm of the couch as he tugged my shorts off.  I couldn't think of a better way to end the night I thought as I lifted his shirt.



Note:   I wanted to thank everyone for your kind words. I'm so sorry I was out for so long. I was sick with my first pregnancies but for some reason got amnesia and tried again. This time was rough I spent a couple days in the hospital getting rehydrated. The good news is I have more good days then bad now :)  I'm praying for my energy to come back too, soon enough. Anywho thank you for sticking with me. - Juliette 

Update

Sorry guys I'm still really sick.  So tired of throwing up!!!  I will definitely post when I can. Hormones that make you sick are supposed to be good news so at least I have that :)